"I really didn't like that. Unfortunately, he was drifting away from us at that point, so none of us actually knew. He never told us; we heard rumours and we were very sad. But he'd embarked on a new course, which really involved anything and everything. Because John was that kind of guy -- he wanted to live life to the full as he saw it. He would often say things like, 'If you find yourself at the edge of a cliff and you wonder whether you should jump or not -- try jumping.'"